Yesterday
I finally convinced my mom that Leaders 1354 is not a place for socializing, it's a job. Cory was like "You liar!" But it's not to me though, I go, he makes me work then I leave with something pretty...lol.
We definitely chopped it up yesterday. Me and Kazual are starting a new (insert what you think it is here) for Leaders 1354. It's gonna be dope! I'm gone have all the haters loving...lol.
Me and Cory, and sometimes Ty and Kazual, had a meeting about this little thing you all are suppose to be guessing about.
Cory was like "Man, this dude does everything, he raps, ________, draws, plays sport and he's smart!" Yes, babe, he finally said I can rap. I text messaged her to tell her about the news but I guess she still doesn't care. (Does this count as 8, 'cause I mentioned her?lol)
It, the part you all are suppose to be guessing, is kind of a secret that's why I would only tell her. I don't know what made her send that message after we talked and I told her about all that stuff the other night. It's pretty confusing, we were straight, like we talked and I said all that stuff and she smiled and giggled and fell asleep on the phone. Then the next day it's Bluh!lol. Wouldn't you be confused?
Evryone: "Yeah!"
Ty said leave it alone but he doesn't care, he has a million girl (don't take that literal, Ty's girls...lol.) Everyone finds it odd that I got dumped. That's not the usual...lol.
Cory said, "what's wrong with that? All you did was notice that something was different and you were trying to fix it... whatever though, y'all young."
Nah...but...yeah, I wouldn't be suprised if she forgot about me and these two days she didn't even have ounce of "I like him againism" in her...lol.
Brings me to church. Man, pastor (not the usual) spoke the trizzuth today. I got hekka quotes...
Church
Quote 1:"Sometimes you got to go through stuff to get stuff. Sometimes you have togo through sometings to appreciate what you have/had."
Man, that one hit me in the face. I was like OH MY! Is that what is happening? I've gone through all this 808's and HeartBreak and I finally see that I appreciate what we had. It was nothing wrong it was just a hard transition from chillin' a lot to not as much. That's not bad at all.
I think It was this punishment thing. That's what I told Corey. If I would have never done what I did, I wouldn't be on punishment, I would've met moms, We would have gone out and it would've been straight. That whole thing was a test though to get me to this. Kind of a harsh test but it was. I think this is the end result or there is more to come, maybe because of the break-up I may get kicked out of school and become a drug dealer, then become homeless or this may lead me to be a great person, but how can I be great without her.
"Every great man, needs an equally as great woman." These other girls are not on her level. They can't run with her. Well, I haven't met anyone that could yet, if there is.
Quote 2:
"When someone is going through something, you have to just let them. You can't tell them about the things you hear from God, you have to let them hear for themselves."
Hit me again! What?
I was interfering her from hearing what she needed to. I was interfering her from thinking and really choosing which path she wanted in this situation. I was blocking all signs that were suppose to reach her and the end result was, "I need some space." I probably ruined that...
I told Ty what she said he was like, "lol...D**n you were somethering the girl...lol."
I was like, "well...not really...lol."
And my sister said maybe she's waiting for meto decide what should happen in this and I said' "Naw, she's not like that... She would get mad if I decided...lol"
Quote 3:
"They weren't even looking for you, but once they saw you, they new you were the one."
After that, I knew he was talking directly to me...lol.
I stood up... Cool, but I stood up...lol.
She wasn't looking for me but from what she told me, when she saw me, she liked me.
Who said they didn't believe in love at first sight?
#8
Peacin' Izzout!
I'm Marty McFlying Out!!!
Delorean Style!
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