The Death of Turk

March 9 2009, the beginning of the worst week of my life…
Monday… I was really contemplating just leaving school and taking my GED test. I know it sounds dumb seeing how we got 2 months of school left. But I know what I be on when it come to school work and it aint good… like say I fall behind of something… I just give up… and no matter how much I push and try I just can’t “ pick myself up again” I don’t know why its just the way I’ve been my whole life I guess… its crazy.. I been ditching classes like crazy this year thinking it would’ve catch up to me… it did… I found out that I have like a million detentions and if u attend king u know what that means… if not it means if you have more than 10 detentions you can’t come to ANY dances such as Homecoming, Winter Ball… and umm yea PROM… Crazy rule I know right but that’s how my school is… so I really was like damn if I can’t go 2 prom or anything else… what’s the purpose of still trying in school when a GED is about the same as a High School diploma… But my main man Paul talked me out of it. Along with Ms. Puller, Ms. Madden, Ms Ellington, and Ms. Johnson… these ladies are very important to me… one had my heart 4 a very long time, she is just starting to let it go. One is taking my heart before I can even get it back. One knows all my secrets and she helps me with almost any problem I have. And the last one is doesn’t know I def have a crush on her but she wont open up 2 me. Yea that was just Monday… Tuesday- Thursday were basically the same way…. But Friday, OMG… I LOST MY EVERYTHING, MY LIFE, LOVE, SOUL, HEART, THE ONLY ONE THAT WOULDN’T HURT ME EVER… MY iPod….I was so upset with myself for being so careless with it… I can’t believe it every time I think about it I get upset… anytime I hear a song that was on it I get mad like WTF I can’t hear that when ever I wanna anymore…. WTF OMG WHY ME????????.... Well there is nothing I can do now so I guess I gotta get over it… but still my iPod… That’s what got me through the toughest nights and the worst days… and it seems like the only person I wanna talk to… Natalie…. Isn’t talking back anymore… so yea… F***…. I Can’t even type anymore… I can hear a dream song in my head that I hated so much… but right now all I wanna do is play it… WTF D***….




P.S. TURK IS DEAD…. JORGE EL-SPLANADE Will Live
And Naneazy… I’m falling… make me stop….