MY DAY!

SPACE

She said she wanted some space. Now family, friends and fans, correct me if I'm wrong but isn't that statement an equivalent to "Leave me alone...forever"? It meant that when I said that to my ex-girlfriend before her. Yes, I got back with her but it didn't last long...

I can't wait any longer though. I can't sit around and feel bad about myself because of her. I'm kind of sick of all this, it's getting kind of boring, I keep trying and trying. Maybe "space" means "stop". it's like, "man, It doesn't take that long to decide"...lol. Yeah, I'm still waiting but I'm not going to be sitting around waiting for a call that is more likely not to happen.

I am going to start a new kind of "thing" with girls. I'm not going to care anymore. I think of girls/women as the best thing that ever happened to mankind. Now, it's going to be like "Naw, I don't really want a relationship, how about we go together for one night"...lol (Someone's going to take that statement to the head...lol.)

It takes about a billion others to make up her, so if it's not her, it's a billion...lol. (...to the head...lol)

My brother is home, so I'm trying to do some things. I really need to go to a college party. I really don't like high school parties anymore. I need to go to a party and be able to embark on a journey to a beautiful young lady's dorm room...lol.

Again, I'm waiting. I will always be...well...yeah, always...lol. (she's taking that one to the head... "well you hesitated, you wouldn't really wait. That's what I got from that statement.")

Honestly, I believe the only reason she's not saying, "I don't want 'us' anymore" is because, I guess she doesn't want to hurt me. Honestly, I would be hurt but, I'll get over it, right?

Everyone: "Right!"

And I believe that is what's on her mind right now, "well, he'll get over it". I really can't chase someone for love if they don't feel the same, right?

Everyone: "Right!"

I don't know, I really hope she says she wants to be an item again.

But, I really don't know. I can't say I don't care because , um... my last 5 posts have been about her.

Nah...but...yeah, I'm going to give her space. That means I can't answer her phones calls or texts, which means, I have to delete her number again, I actually hesitated to save it back in my phone because I didn't know, I guess I felt confident, look where that got me...lol. But it's funny how I never made a post about the days I felt like it there was hope, like yesterday and the day before, I guess I wasn't that confident...lol

I regret kissing her today because that sent me way off. I think she regretted it too cause I don't think she wants this anymore. I kind of noticed she regrets the kiss because after, she had a "let's not walk together, we don't know each other" type attitude...lol. I mean what can I do, right? It's on her.

Everyone: "Right!"

So for now, I'm giving her space. I mean as much space as I can. I'm going to avoid all contact with her. SPACE is what's up!
Separate
Places
And
Create
Excuses

Kind of whack but...I made that like in 10 seconds...lol. SPACE, the new chant!

Nah...but...yeah, That's the end of that part of my day....

LEADERS 1354

Yo, I am outta there (tired). This is the deal. I work downtown on Fridays and Saturdays and today, I really wanted to go Leaders so, I told my Aunt "Beezy" (Aunt Beth) that I needed to be at work earlier than usual. Mind you, real work starts at 6:30 pm on Fridays, I got to the dance studio at 5:40 pm. "Oh, let me go see Corey!".

Leaders is by the Hooters and Rock and Roll McDonald's and the dance studio is on Polk which is before Juggernaut, which is before you even get downtown, which is by Roosevelt. Leaders is by on the Northern part of Downtown, past Water Tower.

Yes, I walked. Moms took all the dough out the bank so, I had no spendings. NO BUS!

This is from South Chicago to North Downtown...Wheewph

It took me twenty minutes. It takes like twenty minutes for a CAR to get there. I'M A BEAST!

I walked to Leaders and I fell out as soon as I went to the back to go to the bathroom. I knew I saw someone that looked familiar/famous when I walked in but I paid no attention 'cause I was so tired. When I came back, I noticed that Chingy was in Leaders...lol. Why? Why was Chingy in Leaders, he's not fresh? If Corey would have let me run the store that day (which is highly unlikely) I wouldn't have let him in.

He had his pants rolled up to his shin and some SBs. He tried. He did drop about 2 stacks, but that's usual at Leaders...lol.

Enough about him...

I sat around, told Corey about my songs that referenced Leaders and stuff and how people say I'm riding. This is what he said "Tell 'em to get off your ****, you're a fresh dude, that's all."I was like, "yeah, true talk."

I had to leave so, I prepared myself to walk the longest journey ever and so I dipped. As, I walked out the door "Cory says be safe, come by tomorrow, I got something for you." I like the sounds of that, that guy is like pops to me. I can't go tomorrow, I wasn't suppose to go today but I had to. I had to!

And Oh, of course me and big homie Corey chopped it up about getting dough. I may be designing a Leaders 1354 shirt. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!
People are so jealous of my relationship with Corey...lol. PAUSE!

Nah...but...yeah, I heard some news about all the employees are... Never mind, you'll see.lol. In other words I'm getting the benefits the employees and I don't even work there...lol.

I'm so loving it right now. Corey just made my day, no, MY LIFE...lol. I needed that though, cause man, I'm mad sad...lol.
Peacin' Izzout!

I'm Marty McFlying Out!!!
Delorean Style!