Still Here

One of the guys asked if I forgot the blog. Nah, I'm here. It's just nothing going on right now. I'm starting to not care about this mixtape though. It gets less and less appealing every other day.I had someone tell me I had a "Lil' Wayne Style" today because I say those adlibs in between lines. No disrespect but I just started liking Wayne two years ago, I've been rapping since 5 grade, you do the math. Then you can't say switch it up. Then I'm not doing me. I'll rather get local love with my real style than global love with a style that's a facade. I'm not switching up my style to fit anyone's discription of a good rapper. Imma do me, you can do what you like! Man, it seems like everybody wants to hate. ALL OF YOU CAN HOP OFF MY PLANE! But I don't even care, as long as my fan base excedes my "I hate Nan base". You gotta say "fan" with a(n) (insert country here) accent...lol. I mean even moms hates sometimes. I mean she goes pretty hard. I don't know though, I think she just doesn't wanna let me go to (college) yet. She's trying to lock me in the crib everyday. I don't know though. I'm going in the crib and spleeping.
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I'm Marty McFlying Out!!!
In Sidekick Mode!

Loser - Charles Hamilton

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Date Change

Yep, you guessed it. The tape has been pushed back, again, until April 7th. Me and my colleagues (Mack Main and Jorge) decided that this will be a better date because we're out of school and we will be able to have the listening party that I've been desiring since forever. I know that you all want to hear that good good but I guess its not time. Maybe the suspense is building my fan base. That's how it feels. Don't worry, I'm not "Draking" y'all. The tape is finished. I just keep rescheduling because I want to have my listening party. I don't know why but i feel that's it's needed. "And what I desire is what I require."

Everyone who's like, "Yo when the tape dropping.", "You taking too long."

Chill

When it comes it'll be at the perfect time. And sooner than later you'll be bumping your heads to Naneazy the Young Chief tunes...

For now enjoy the leaks on the blog...

Right now the party is planned to be on the 8th. We have something planned to go before and after the party. So the party will be like a grand finally before the grand finally.

Oh yeah, shout to my new followers that commented in the venting box (shouts box). I appreciate your love....

I'm so ecstatic about everything!!! We're trying to get into that '09 Payroll. But For now I'm
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Only In the Chi, Are We This Fly: Leaders 1354 Incase

Yeah, you see me with the Incase joint on. It's for laptops. MacBooks preferably. I hang out there so much they're actually putting me to work, for real for real. Finally!
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# 1

No matter how mad I am, there's no one that I believe compares to her. If all the girls were in a marathon to get to me, she would overlap all. And the race wouldn't even be more than one lap. She's just at that level of excellence.

She's like the girl version of me.
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Your Turn...

I don't know why she does it but I hope she's enjoying it. Either she knows that it's going to hurt her as a long-term result or she is using as a benefit. She's using it because she knows what she's doing when she does it.
It seems like when she's mad, I have to accept it and wait and when she's over it I'm suppose to act cool. When I'm mad, for the little fraction of time I'm mad, she has to get mad after. She can't just let me be mad. She has to retaliate with some sort of attitude or a behavior when she ignores me.

If I ignored her for being mad at me then there's a problem. I can't have my time to chill. All I did was listen to "See You In My Nightmares" and then I was over it. "Heartless" happened to come on and I wanted to enjoy it so I didn't turn. I was, in no way, shape, or form making any implications that she was heartless. So, I guess that's how she took it.

There's going to be a time when I'm like "ok, she's upset whatever" like she does me.

I still love that girl though. I just wanna be able to be mad and she not have to feel like she needs to match my anger. She's still number one, so you all can walk it out...
Peacin' Izzout!

I'm Marty McFlying Out!!!
In SideKick Mode!
(When I say that, that means I'm on my sidekick blogging. The usual "Delorean Style!" will happen when I'm on a computer.)

The Death of Turk

March 9 2009, the beginning of the worst week of my life…
Monday… I was really contemplating just leaving school and taking my GED test. I know it sounds dumb seeing how we got 2 months of school left. But I know what I be on when it come to school work and it aint good… like say I fall behind of something… I just give up… and no matter how much I push and try I just can’t “ pick myself up again” I don’t know why its just the way I’ve been my whole life I guess… its crazy.. I been ditching classes like crazy this year thinking it would’ve catch up to me… it did… I found out that I have like a million detentions and if u attend king u know what that means… if not it means if you have more than 10 detentions you can’t come to ANY dances such as Homecoming, Winter Ball… and umm yea PROM… Crazy rule I know right but that’s how my school is… so I really was like damn if I can’t go 2 prom or anything else… what’s the purpose of still trying in school when a GED is about the same as a High School diploma… But my main man Paul talked me out of it. Along with Ms. Puller, Ms. Madden, Ms Ellington, and Ms. Johnson… these ladies are very important to me… one had my heart 4 a very long time, she is just starting to let it go. One is taking my heart before I can even get it back. One knows all my secrets and she helps me with almost any problem I have. And the last one is doesn’t know I def have a crush on her but she wont open up 2 me. Yea that was just Monday… Tuesday- Thursday were basically the same way…. But Friday, OMG… I LOST MY EVERYTHING, MY LIFE, LOVE, SOUL, HEART, THE ONLY ONE THAT WOULDN’T HURT ME EVER… MY iPod….I was so upset with myself for being so careless with it… I can’t believe it every time I think about it I get upset… anytime I hear a song that was on it I get mad like WTF I can’t hear that when ever I wanna anymore…. WTF OMG WHY ME????????.... Well there is nothing I can do now so I guess I gotta get over it… but still my iPod… That’s what got me through the toughest nights and the worst days… and it seems like the only person I wanna talk to… Natalie…. Isn’t talking back anymore… so yea… F***…. I Can’t even type anymore… I can hear a dream song in my head that I hated so much… but right now all I wanna do is play it… WTF D***….




P.S. TURK IS DEAD…. JORGE EL-SPLANADE Will Live
And Naneazy… I’m falling… make me stop….

WIFEY!!!

No not you, her. The kick. I finally got back my Sidekick 2008. As a matter of fact, I'm blogging right now while on the stool (toilet). Multitasking is the way. Ok, this is the best. I finally got my qwerty keyboard and I'm typing like there's no tomorrow. Shout out to my guy on ebay that sold this to me. The screen is kinda scratched up but we good. I got my baby back. And plus I got it for the 100 + 50 dollars. Other people were selling it for like 200 and three hundogs. Not I. This is the rawest phone in all ther lands. Touch screens suck. Read the older posts and you'll find out what I tink about them. The post has a picture of the Sidekick 2008. I forgot what it was called.

Nah...but...yeah, text me cause my text game is at an all time high right now. I can text like 300000000000....000000....00000 words a minute. I made this post in like 5 minutes holla at me!
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Delorean Style!!!

I can't put the colors cause I'm on the phone. Aight chill.

Only In the Chi, Are We This Fly: LEADERS 1354

These are so hot. Fly tip, right? $135-150. Hit Up LEADERS 1354!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Only In the Chi, Are We This Fly: LEADERS 1354

Where are mine??????????????????? These Nike Huarache 2K8 X Leaders 1354 were given to employees and special customers. I wanted a pair...
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Only In the Chi, Are We This Fly: LEADERS 1354

The Piet Mondrian inspired sneakers and fitted. Fly tip, right?
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Yes Trachello, You're the Winner!!!

Guess what you get... Nothing!!!!!!!!!!

Nah...but...yeah, The bad horrible thing was, this a punishment. She told me she new all along that we would be again. I called her a punk for that!

We're chillin' taking it one day at a time. We're doing our thugthizzle.

Let us do us. Cause We gone do us, you can do what you like!
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GUESS!!!!

You're suppose to guess!

The Last of Sorrow

I finally got the text message I've been waiting for. The one that will determine how I live the rest of my life. The one that will end the chain of posts. The one from her.

Guess what she sent....

Put it in the comment box. I don't get why a lot people say they're frequent visitors but they don't comment. It's frustrating!
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Today and Yesterday (Leaders 1354 and Church)

Yesterday

I finally convinced my mom that Leaders 1354 is not a place for socializing, it's a job. Cory was like "You liar!" But it's not to me though, I go, he makes me work then I leave with something pretty...lol.

We definitely chopped it up yesterday. Me and Kazual are starting a new (insert what you think it is here) for Leaders 1354. It's gonna be dope! I'm gone have all the haters loving...lol.

Me and Cory, and sometimes Ty and Kazual, had a meeting about this little thing you all are suppose to be guessing about.

Cory was like "Man, this dude does everything, he raps, ________, draws, plays sport and he's smart!" Yes, babe, he finally said I can rap. I text messaged her to tell her about the news but I guess she still doesn't care. (Does this count as 8, 'cause I mentioned her?lol)

It, the part you all are suppose to be guessing, is kind of a secret that's why I would only tell her. I don't know what made her send that message after we talked and I told her about all that stuff the other night. It's pretty confusing, we were straight, like we talked and I said all that stuff and she smiled and giggled and fell asleep on the phone. Then the next day it's Bluh!lol. Wouldn't you be confused?

Evryone: "Yeah!"

Ty said leave it alone but he doesn't care, he has a million girl (don't take that literal, Ty's girls...lol.) Everyone finds it odd that I got dumped. That's not the usual...lol.

Cory said, "what's wrong with that? All you did was notice that something was different and you were trying to fix it... whatever though, y'all young."

Nah...but...yeah, I wouldn't be suprised if she forgot about me and these two days she didn't even have ounce of "I like him againism" in her...lol.

Brings me to church. Man, pastor (not the usual) spoke the trizzuth today. I got hekka quotes...

Church

Quote 1:
"Sometimes you got to go through stuff to get stuff. Sometimes you have togo through sometings to appreciate what you have/had."

Man, that one hit me in the face. I was like OH MY! Is that what is happening? I've gone through all this 808's and HeartBreak and I finally see that I appreciate what we had. It was nothing wrong it was just a hard transition from chillin' a lot to not as much. That's not bad at all.

I think It was this punishment thing. That's what I told Corey. If I would have never done what I did, I wouldn't be on punishment, I would've met moms, We would have gone out and it would've been straight. That whole thing was a test though to get me to this. Kind of a harsh test but it was. I think this is the end result or there is more to come, maybe because of the break-up I may get kicked out of school and become a drug dealer, then become homeless or this may lead me to be a great person, but how can I be great without her.

"Every great man, needs an equally as great woman." These other girls are not on her level. They can't run with her. Well, I haven't met anyone that could yet, if there is.

Quote 2:
"When someone is going through something, you have to just let them. You can't tell them about the things you hear from God, you have to let them hear for themselves."

Hit me again! What?

I was interfering her from hearing what she needed to. I was interfering her from thinking and really choosing which path she wanted in this situation. I was blocking all signs that were suppose to reach her and the end result was, "I need some space." I probably ruined that...

I told Ty what she said he was like, "lol...D**n you were somethering the girl...lol."

I was like, "well...not really...lol."

And my sister said maybe she's waiting for meto decide what should happen in this and I said' "Naw, she's not like that... She would get mad if I decided...lol"

Quote 3:
"They weren't even looking for you, but once they saw you, they new you were the one."

After that, I knew he was talking directly to me...lol.

I stood up... Cool, but I stood up...lol.

She wasn't looking for me but from what she told me, when she saw me, she liked me.

Who said they didn't believe in love at first sight?
#8
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Another One...

Sometimes
U
Can't
Keep
Still

When thins suck you try to fix them and you can't keep still, right?

Everyone: "Right!"
#7
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I Changed It...

After some careful thinking I changed it to...

Separating
People
Alas
Crude
Eternity

Basically if we keep separating, we'll eventually forget about each other, which would be horrible/crude and the thoughts we have about each other would be crude but the separation will last for eternity.

That's blog six about her...
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MY DAY!

SPACE

She said she wanted some space. Now family, friends and fans, correct me if I'm wrong but isn't that statement an equivalent to "Leave me alone...forever"? It meant that when I said that to my ex-girlfriend before her. Yes, I got back with her but it didn't last long...

I can't wait any longer though. I can't sit around and feel bad about myself because of her. I'm kind of sick of all this, it's getting kind of boring, I keep trying and trying. Maybe "space" means "stop". it's like, "man, It doesn't take that long to decide"...lol. Yeah, I'm still waiting but I'm not going to be sitting around waiting for a call that is more likely not to happen.

I am going to start a new kind of "thing" with girls. I'm not going to care anymore. I think of girls/women as the best thing that ever happened to mankind. Now, it's going to be like "Naw, I don't really want a relationship, how about we go together for one night"...lol (Someone's going to take that statement to the head...lol.)

It takes about a billion others to make up her, so if it's not her, it's a billion...lol. (...to the head...lol)

My brother is home, so I'm trying to do some things. I really need to go to a college party. I really don't like high school parties anymore. I need to go to a party and be able to embark on a journey to a beautiful young lady's dorm room...lol.

Again, I'm waiting. I will always be...well...yeah, always...lol. (she's taking that one to the head... "well you hesitated, you wouldn't really wait. That's what I got from that statement.")

Honestly, I believe the only reason she's not saying, "I don't want 'us' anymore" is because, I guess she doesn't want to hurt me. Honestly, I would be hurt but, I'll get over it, right?

Everyone: "Right!"

And I believe that is what's on her mind right now, "well, he'll get over it". I really can't chase someone for love if they don't feel the same, right?

Everyone: "Right!"

I don't know, I really hope she says she wants to be an item again.

But, I really don't know. I can't say I don't care because , um... my last 5 posts have been about her.

Nah...but...yeah, I'm going to give her space. That means I can't answer her phones calls or texts, which means, I have to delete her number again, I actually hesitated to save it back in my phone because I didn't know, I guess I felt confident, look where that got me...lol. But it's funny how I never made a post about the days I felt like it there was hope, like yesterday and the day before, I guess I wasn't that confident...lol

I regret kissing her today because that sent me way off. I think she regretted it too cause I don't think she wants this anymore. I kind of noticed she regrets the kiss because after, she had a "let's not walk together, we don't know each other" type attitude...lol. I mean what can I do, right? It's on her.

Everyone: "Right!"

So for now, I'm giving her space. I mean as much space as I can. I'm going to avoid all contact with her. SPACE is what's up!
Separate
Places
And
Create
Excuses

Kind of whack but...I made that like in 10 seconds...lol. SPACE, the new chant!

Nah...but...yeah, That's the end of that part of my day....

LEADERS 1354

Yo, I am outta there (tired). This is the deal. I work downtown on Fridays and Saturdays and today, I really wanted to go Leaders so, I told my Aunt "Beezy" (Aunt Beth) that I needed to be at work earlier than usual. Mind you, real work starts at 6:30 pm on Fridays, I got to the dance studio at 5:40 pm. "Oh, let me go see Corey!".

Leaders is by the Hooters and Rock and Roll McDonald's and the dance studio is on Polk which is before Juggernaut, which is before you even get downtown, which is by Roosevelt. Leaders is by on the Northern part of Downtown, past Water Tower.

Yes, I walked. Moms took all the dough out the bank so, I had no spendings. NO BUS!

This is from South Chicago to North Downtown...Wheewph

It took me twenty minutes. It takes like twenty minutes for a CAR to get there. I'M A BEAST!

I walked to Leaders and I fell out as soon as I went to the back to go to the bathroom. I knew I saw someone that looked familiar/famous when I walked in but I paid no attention 'cause I was so tired. When I came back, I noticed that Chingy was in Leaders...lol. Why? Why was Chingy in Leaders, he's not fresh? If Corey would have let me run the store that day (which is highly unlikely) I wouldn't have let him in.

He had his pants rolled up to his shin and some SBs. He tried. He did drop about 2 stacks, but that's usual at Leaders...lol.

Enough about him...

I sat around, told Corey about my songs that referenced Leaders and stuff and how people say I'm riding. This is what he said "Tell 'em to get off your ****, you're a fresh dude, that's all."I was like, "yeah, true talk."

I had to leave so, I prepared myself to walk the longest journey ever and so I dipped. As, I walked out the door "Cory says be safe, come by tomorrow, I got something for you." I like the sounds of that, that guy is like pops to me. I can't go tomorrow, I wasn't suppose to go today but I had to. I had to!

And Oh, of course me and big homie Corey chopped it up about getting dough. I may be designing a Leaders 1354 shirt. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!
People are so jealous of my relationship with Corey...lol. PAUSE!

Nah...but...yeah, I heard some news about all the employees are... Never mind, you'll see.lol. In other words I'm getting the benefits the employees and I don't even work there...lol.

I'm so loving it right now. Corey just made my day, no, MY LIFE...lol. I needed that though, cause man, I'm mad sad...lol.
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Advice from the Young and Wise

I've obviously been sweating her too much. I finally realized that like... 10 last night, I was like "wait, just wait, she'll come through", but I was still a little clingy. I talked to the big homies, Keila, Jas and Dreazy and they told me to chill. I'm chilling. They said give her some time to think, she can't think if I keep distracting her. BUT! What if she goes the other way? One of the homies said she wouldn't and I should just chill.

It's impossible for me to chill if I'm able to contact her. So... The digits have been excused from the celly until further notice. I actually started that last night, then she called, so it came back up. So, I have re-deleted and until I get that message that informs me that she's ready (it may never come, but hopefully it will) I will return to my Baybay (Danielle: Remember that? lol).

I can't go pass my call log and see her name and not call or see a text from her and not call, so I deleted all of those too. I can't wait forever though, I really can't. I wish I could, I want to, but I can't.

So for now I'm chilling, waiting almost patiently for the message. Don't worry, I'll give you your space, I won't run up 3 flights of stairs from the other side of the school for a hug...lol. It was pretty awkward, I just want to go back to the thing we loved so much and got hated on so much about, but I guess it's not the time.

Remember, even if in 10 years, you get the slightest urge to return to the whackest guy alive, I'll leave my wife (if I ever get married (I really don't want to get married now, if she's not the one (I'm kinda on my "Every Girl" swag (you heard the song...lol) now until she comes back)) for you. I will literally end my marriage to come back.

I'm so serious.

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I'm Marty McFlying Out!!!
Delorean Style!

I Wanna Get Back On...

I totally didn't write this. It came straight from the heart. I started thinking about Drake's "Let's Call it Off" and I just started going in, but in when it recorded It didn't sound right. So I guess I writing it now...

I Wanna Get Back On

Singing:
Why did it get like this
I do agree you gave me a warning
But I really regret this...
Happened, so Ima just keep calling saying

I want you back right now
I want to see you happy baby
I want to see you smile
for me

Hook:
Do you believe
She said let it be
Do you believe she said it's a must
But I wanna get back on
She said she's tired of us
But I wanna get back on

Rapping:
I never really thought about it
But when you did it I knew my actions were so childish
And I ain't on the foul tip
so, I want you back and now doubt its...
all on you
I put in your court, yeah the balls on you
so when I call you
I want you to tell if you wanna pass or take chance and shoot
And "shoot" is what I root
so I would be hurt if you give me the boot
Cause I never cared like this
Girl said "it's over" I'm like yeah that's it
but when you said it
I couldn't get it
So I was kinda shaken up
started twitch when talked breaking up
so I want you back
And I would've fought for anything to have won you back, babe...

That's it.
Peacin' Izzout!

I'm Marty McFlying Out!!!
Delorean Style!

I miss her...

Well, you thought that I was ok and done with this right? Yeah right, I can't forget about her.

How can you take someone out your brain when they make it function. I can tell she cares. She just had the same feeling I had. She was trying to forget about me but it's hard for both of us.

All that stuff about me being cool and moving on. Not real. I mean, I've accepted the current situation but I want her back. This is a bad day. I'm glad we didn't have school today cause I would do no work. Hopefully tomorrow is better.

I'm really trying to replace my thoughts of her... Like I'm closing my eyes and take her away but flashes of different images of her keep appearing. I can't do it. She's so mad at me and I'm trying to make it better but she's not going. She's right, I need to give her time to think but I can't give her time, I don't want to. I'm going crazy...

She's my forever... I know she feels the same...
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Delorean Style!

100th Post

This is the post when I do a 180. I'm perfectly fine with my situation right now! The mixtape is coming out the 2oth. It's going to be the best. Please weed out all the girlfriend references...lol. She says I didn't appreciate her... Well, I guess that how she feels. I really don't care anymore. It's funny how she wanted me to care but she doesn't. Well guys, there you have it. You're dreams have been fulfilled. It's over. I so want her back! Enough about that... I'm on a whole new thing now. It's TIME FOR SOME AKSION! I'm not saying any names but yeah, you're on.
I think I'm going to name the next one 808's and Experation Dates.
Yo, I'm on my don't care about girls thing now. I'm just tryna get it in...lol. College here I come. Still haven't decided, that's coming soon.
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