Music

I don't know why but I use music to help me when I'm down and out or confused. Usually when I need some assistance, I go to the Peazy (iPod) and the right song comes on that gives me advice on my situation. I don't know how it happens but it does. I just got my therapist back because it was broken for a while. I've been making some horrible decisions lately and now I'm doing a little better. If I would have had my iPod to listen to, I would have never ended it. I'm not explaining my self. What's done is done and there's absolutely nothing that can be done. And there's absolutely nothing that will make her change her mind about the decision she made the other day. Maybe time could fix it but that just means I have to wait. After learning the hard way, I know that all I should do is just sit back and let whomever I'm dealing with think. I know, with her, it's officially over. The thinking has been done but in the future, I'll use what I've learned. I dreamt about her last night. I dreamt that that night she got the "bad vibe" from me actually went well and we went out the next day. It sucks that that didn't happen. Again, this is not an explanation. I'm not trying to get back in. I'm just venting. Just trying to let it all go. I'm not saying that I wouldn't again, if she gave me the proposal to return to being together, I would gladly accept because I enjoy her company. Like a lot.

Well...let me stop rambling even though it's my blog...lol. If she wants to, I want her to listen to Amanda Diva's "Little Things" and Sade's "Love is Stronger than Pride" and think about what she wants. I know she's not over me, 'cause I'm not o'er her (Peep the Shakesperean writing). We simply invested too much into each other to just let things go so easily. Unless...I don't know, it was a one way street... I know she's gonna think I'm mean for saying that but it just seems like she can just let it go so easily. She's showing me no emotion. I gues that's what you have to do to get your point across, huh? Once i'm gone though, it's hard to get me back.Really hard. i don't think it'll be hard with her though. If we talk about it and it's what we both want. If not then, bckcc (cool in twi). The "C"s are actually bakwards and they're pronounced like a short "O".



Couldn't find the Little Things...
Peacin' Izzout!

I'm Marty McFlying Out!!!
Delorean Style!